THIS IS A LOW TRAFFIC BLOG

definitely this is a low traffic blog,

not many of my close friends know i do blogging.

my bf knows i do blogging, however he seldom visit here.

I did display the blog url on my facebook profile,

yet i'm the one comprising majority of the 282 visits.

i think this may due to i refuse and unwillingly to promote my blog in a high-profile way.

I blog not for any purpose, it simply a platform to venture my thoughts.

I'm loyal to my principle.

A high visit stat might make me delightful, but it lost the true meaning of blogging.

Just now i displayed about Nuffnang ads on my blog.

Just simply make for fun, i don't expect i can get any paid from the advertisers since THIS IS A LOW TRAFFIC BLOG.

Sicking of money

Going to have two job interviews later, one locates at Menara Maxis another company locates at Damansara Intan.

Hopefully i could grab the job offer from the company at Menara Maxis since it's more transportation-friendly for me.

Yearning of money

Dying of boredom

Thus, please offer me some job, ok?

I'm going to have a Dubai stopover along my trip to Manchester.

It adds approximate 800 bucks into the original air-ticket price for a 21 hours stay at Dubai.

Sounds expensive?

Indeed it is.

For the short stay at Dubai, an adventurous desert trip is a must.

i will experience a 45 minutes dune bushing,

camel ride,

hubbly bubbly,

henna

and etc.

Of course, i'm not going to take the hubbly bubbly (or known as hookah) since it's another form of smoking.

can't wait the time to come.

Officially Graduated

Received my final year, final semester result today. Frankly, i'm not satisfied with it.

After underwent a long student life, it's my time to say goodbye to Tunku Abdul Rahman College, a place that breeds and sharpens my so-called talent for four years.

I reminisce my diploma life, I start sharpening my writing skill,

English is not my mother-tongue, the despicable emotion of Puan Rohana on non-English mother-tongue students is carved in my mind.

I strive to survive in a world that full with English writing.

I was bombarded everyday by assignments, theories and journals.

I will never forget how me and Tina to get in touch with Yew Tiong Lok for assignments purpose, it's a tough process.

I will never forget the day of me and my group-mates who tried our best to produce our piece of work.

I will never forget K'ng, who helped me completing my feature writing assignment by contacting Paralympic weight-lifting athlete, Cheok Kon Fatt.

I will never forget the three-month internship at BERNAMA, where a life full with challenges and eventualities.

I will never forget the difficult time when my sister leave my family during my study.

I will also never forget Captivate, the company I've been working as trial specialist along my college student life.

I will never forget lecturers that pass and fail me in the study.

Four years ago, my piece of writing full with shoddy grammar,

deficient vocabulary, weak points and weak arguments.

After four years, I am still incompetent in English writing.

I already tried my best and pour all my efforts.

I know i will never be comparable with Jian Hao, Ah Yia, Tabby or Steph.

But i also know there was no one as comparable with me since everyone is a unique artwork from The Mother of Nature.

An Advanced Diploma may sound nothing for others,

but it symbolizes another milestone in my life.

I stepped on Journalism course with trembling foots, shaky determination and weak faith.

Here, I dedicate my so-so result to my family, my friends, my lecturers,

my coursemates, everyone that lend me a hand, support me and also whoever that taught me the lesson of life.

Thanks to you all.

口是心非

明明很在乎，却装作无所谓

两个人一起，我反而觉得更寂寞。。。

You're Not Alone

i hope someone could sing this song for me =D

fall in love with this song,

sadly i can't find this song on youtube.

"You're Not Alone by Shayne Ward"

She's getting out of bed
At half past ten
She starts to comb her hair
Just an ordinary day
She looks at her reflection
Off the wall
Why do I care at all
Just an ordinary day
An ordinary day
That's hurting you
Don't hide out inside yourself
If you only let the sunshine on you
I promise you
You're not alone
When the lights go out at night
When you're feeling lost inside
You're not alone
You're not alone
When your world is falling down
I will be the one around
You're not alone
You're not alone
She's waiting for the bus it's 12.59
She's sitting on her own
Just an ordinary day
She's looking at the people
Passing her by
It could be you and I
They would never dream
Of slowing down
To see if she's alright
Don't hide out inside yourself
If you only let the sunshine on you
I promise you
You're not alone
When the lights go out at night
When you're feeling lost inside
You're not alone
You're not alone
When your world is falling down
I will be the one around
You're not alone
I'm hurting
She's hurting
I'm hurting, she's hurting
I'm so alone
When the lights go out at night
When you're feeling lost inside
You're not alone
I will be the one around

Some forgotten blogs

Counting by fingers, i been established few blogs since i get to know Internet.

Prior to blogspot, footsteps could be found on Friendster blog, Vox.com, 无名小站,

what else do i have?

i think that's all the blogs i have.

Definitely blogspot is the long-life ever and most active update.

Usually there are few reasons urged me to open a new blog.

Firstly, attracted by friends.

Secondly, design of the blog.

Thirdly, the user interfaces.

however, the reasons that impulsed me to open a new blog also became the reasons i dragged them out of my blog list.

有病呻吟

明明没什么不开心的，但我只想叹气.

明明没啥东西好烦，但脑袋就是一直转啊转.

感情顺利，家人和乐，朋友融洽，那么我到底想叹什么气?

其实我不是没东西好烦恼，只烦恼一个问题.

就是钱啊.

之后钱就会带来连锁效应，就会衍生各种各样的问题.

唉，我也不想那么市侩.

人常常说知足常乐，可能我不知足吧.

每每手头上好不容易有了些钱，就自然而然的会有管道迫使我的口袋里空空如也.

真的好累欸，不知道还要过这样的日子多久.

KOJADI loan的事能不能让我顺顺利利找到担保人，顺利借到钱?

基于前车之鉴，我真的担心这次又在一波三折.

can god makes my life easier?

please fulfill my minor wish.

Dying of boredom

As mentioned above, this is the most bored chinese new year that i ever had.

I really CAN'T STAND IT anymore~!!!!

Due to the cataract surgery, my mom is prohibited from stepping out from house.

thus, the whole family has to accompany her.

Without visiting to any relatives house,

the Tioman Island plan was cancelled in a sudden.

*sobbing*

No new clothes, no vacation, no angpau.

I'm in the edge of dying of boredom.

one more thing, gonna pay 420 bucks for KOJADI loan.

the Penang trip with my dear is expected to be abrogated.

*sigh*

彩虹的家

电影"天天好天"主题曲, MV很棒哦 =)

一个人的电影，一个人的晚餐

終於下定決心去觀賞了自己期待已久的两部本地贺岁片，

那就是"天天好天"

以及"笑着回家啦". =)

縱然新年的氣氛一年隨著一年慢慢減少

但看賀歲片也许也会找回那麼一點點的新年氣氛吧. =D

两部片的性质都不一样.

"天天好天"倾向于感人，着重于亲子之间的描写，還真的流眼淚了呢。

电影主题曲"彩虹的家"真的蛮好听.

而"笑着回家"则是喜剧，加上梁智强，Adflin Shauki等等搞笑艺人的演出，的确令这部片子笑料不断.

令我感到惊讶的就是高藝，如今已亭亭玉立，真的女大十八變.

*高藝就是在“老師嫁老大”這部電影里飾演報復范文芳的那個少年*

看完了當然就是醫肚子，還遇到怪怪的外國佬要請我喝水.

一個人看電影，一個人的晚餐其實沒想像中的寂寞，還蠻不錯哦 =)

下次要挑战一个人的旅行，第一站就是槟城，yeah =D

心隔了片海样？

吃着有点味道不佳的咖喱面，想起了那位常常为我下厨烹饪的人。

隔了片海，心的距离是否也是隔了一个海洋呢？

昨天与他闹得有点不愉快，考完了试，没想到我们见面的时间还是一样少啊。。。（苦笑中）

都已经三年了，彼此见到朋友的时间还多过看到对方。

这不是第一次，而也不会是最后一次。

我希望我成为他理想中温柔体贴，善解人意，成熟独立的那个人。

他忙着，我不去烦他。

他累了，我祝他美梦。

每晚电话来了，有的就只是晚安。

他问我：不然你要说什么呢？

我心想：是啊，我们还要说什么呢？

他说我什么都不告诉他，他又有尝试和我深入谈过吗？

他除了忙，还是忙。

所以有些问题自己放在心里就好。

我希望你看到的我是开朗有信心，而不是难过不快乐。

一直压抑自己，久而久之，我心里真的不好过。

于是我发脾气，他却察觉不了我为何心情不好，脾气不佳。

我希望自己不会掉眼泪，可是现在眼泪真的滑下来了。

心在哭泣，眼在流泪，他知道吗？

爱情是不是就这样慢慢被磨掉的呢？

Complexed

This is the first post of 2011.

Unofficially i'm graduated my four years of journalism studies in TARC with a qualification of advanced diploma.

Here begins my redundant holiday.

Recently traced back the news of UK government's plan to cut down the education budget for tertiary schools.

Courses such as arts, social science, psychology, humanities will not receive subsidies from David Cameron's cabinet starting 2012.

Perhaps affected by this news, recently, indeed i have a strong feeling of choosing a wrong path during this four years.

I start to ponder what urged me to step on this field four years ago instead of other more profitable and potential courses such as engineering, chemistry, science or medical.

Even i have a strong urge to migrate to other countries.

However, the first requirement is talent. I don't think a degree in mass communication will make the immigration department qualifies me.

I'm getting more realistic and materialistic, sigh.

Now, there was no way back, it's impossible for me to spend another four years and start it all over again.

All the best for myself.

懂我的人

最近心情总是郁郁寡欢,像是被乌云遮住的天空,晴朗不起来.　

我一直以为家人会是最懂我的人.但很可惜事实好像不是这样哦..　

二姐在面子书上的留言的确让我心都冷了.

我不顾家人吗?我只管追求自己在学业上的成就吗?

她的留言就像在我心里捅了一刀,好痛好痛.我除了忍,还是忍,咬着牙把眼泪往肚子里吞了.

为了这个家的和谐,我忍.

再说我再怎么吵怎么不甘心,错还是会推到我身上.

妈妈病了,不只是你,我的心情也不好.

她留言的时候有没有想过我看到了是多么的伤心难过.我一直以为她是了解我的.

我一直告诉我自己,不要伤心,不要难过,可是眼泪真的忍不住了.

我没关心过这个家了吗?我对这个家没贡献过吗?　

你的眼里只看到你自己的贡献,就这样否定了别人吗?

我并没有义务去忍受你的脾气,你也不会忍受我的脾气,不是吗?

我并不是让你来发泄的.

我不出声不代表我承认我错了,而是为了这个家,我忍.　

就让我在这样小小的角落掉泪,哭过就好,我会更坚强的.

HoMe ALoNe

from this second onwards, here begins my 9-day home alone life.

i could foresee these nine days would be quite bored,

since this is the first time stay at home alone for more than one week.

i start missing them T^T

i miss my mom, though she likes grumbling at us all the time.

also my dad, always be the joker and pillar of our house.

my second sister, her mood could be describe as weather, always unpredictable.

however, she is always my mentor and inspire me.

my boyish youngest sister, though we argue frequently, she is indeed irreplaceable.

i ♥ my family *^_^*

向来就搞不懂为何有些人为了爱情死去活来

“我男朋友不要我，我不想活了”

“为什么他不喜欢我？我好爱他啊...”

诸如此类的...

以前我搞不懂，现在有了他，我还是搞不懂...

对我而言，爱情固然重要，但还有更多更重要的事等着我去做.

这样说是不是太冷血了呢？

爱情靠的是缘分，一切都是不能强求的.

套一句很通俗的话，

勉强没有幸福.

而我更不奢望能天长地久，在这个年代里所谓的天长地久还存在吗？

我更在乎的是， 当下彼此的心里都洋溢着满满的幸福，泛着甜甜的滋味.

比其轰轰烈烈的爱情，我更希望能细水长流.

这真的不像典型

射手座的性格.

射手习惯性地与花心扯上关系，但是啊我强烈否认这一点~~

身边的人偶尔会觉得我对他的爱并不强烈.

大概他自己也这么觉得吧.

因为对于他，我有的只是淡淡的反应.

前些日子与网友诉说感情的问题，

网友：你在哭吗？

我：没有啊

网友：奇怪，怎么通常女生说到感情的事就会哭吗？

我：........ 没这样的事

网友：为什么你看起来好像不在乎他？

（orz，这是安慰吗？）

他的面子书涂鸦墙上从不会出现我对他说：

“亲爱的，我爱你哦”

“好想你哦”

诸如此类令人鸡皮疙瘩的话。。

在众人面前打情骂俏，明目张胆的诉说爱意，都不是我们彼此俩的菜.

彼此很有默契的觉得，爱一个人用动作来证明更实际吧。

我不爱他吗？不是。

相反的心里都预留了个角落给他

爱一个人用动作来证明更实际吧.

只是学会了淡然，知道凡事要看开.

缘分的绳索把各据一方的我们牵在一起，

但有时绳索会随着时间慢慢松开了.

身边那个最爱最在乎的人总不能永远陪在自己的身边，不是吗？

学会放下，那么如果某一天他忽然消失了，也许我不会那么难受..

经过了三年的岁月的洗礼，现在的我更加爱他，也更加珍惜这份得来不易，求之不得的缘分了.

更难得的是他愿意陪我一起吃素.

以前的我觉得他煮饭，煮菜给我吃都是理所当然.

心态很大女人的都没想过对其他女生来说，这些是可遇不可求的.

（炫耀-ing *^__^* )

他用着满满的爱心，关怀，包容做出来的饭菜有幸福的滋味哦^_^ ~

Fuss

staring at computer screen, i wonder what i'm gonna to do.

Comedian, Russell Peter said the biggest difference between men and women was most of the time women are thinking about nonsense.

somehow, now i partially agree with his viewpoint.

perhaps women have the tendency of self-tormenting.

we cannot let our mind rest, our brain will spin and spin and spin, in fact sometimes we, women think about nothing but shit.

even, lately i force myself blogging consistently,

since i felt my blog was too empty.

frankly, blogging shouldn't be a forceful routine, isn't it?

so, what should i do now?

though i have no idea what to utter out, but words are always my loyal companion.

human beings tie a knot with each other through words.

(perhaps not applicable for visual-impaired or hearing-impaired)

Words could calm our mind.

Words also could turn to be a double-edged knife

Words is amazing.

十字路口

犹在十字路口徘徊，

去还是不去呢？

去，

代表一毕业就一大笔的债务追着我呵

不去呢，

又不甘心四年的时间还拿不到学士学位呢

不去的话，

我可以提早出来社会帮助二姐与家里，

而我也不必背着那么多的债务。。

还是去吧，再辛苦我也要熬过去

本小姐又不是不能吃苦，(*^__^*) 嘻嘻……

努力是会有成果的

我相信，人穷志不穷啊

加油哦~~

兔子，桥，钥匙

用兔子，桥，钥匙组成一个句子

比如： 桥上有只兔子，兔子嘴里有支钥匙。。

造好了吗？

兔子---->爱情

桥----> 生活

钥匙---->财富

你的人生里，哪个比较重要呢？

呵呵。。。

这里有个无名小站的帖，关于这个心理测验的，有兴趣的话就看看吧。。。

Another Milestones of life

Yesterday, with previous DJR fellow, together we witnessed Rain ties the knot of marriage.

Julia luckily grabbed the nosegay from the hands of the newly-wed Rain.

perhaps she would be the next one who invites us for luncheon =D

Rain's wedding invitation cards

Photo credit to Tabby

Now, let's see the Damansara Palace scrumptious vegetarian feast.

Main course: Wantan mee with succulent mushrooms

Tofu with mushrooms and vegetables

mouth-watering buttered vegetarian prawns

别来无恙

偶然在面子书上遇到了“姐夫”，还是没有勇气按下Add as friend

Profile里的看见他的status是married。

我看了百感交集，姐姐走了，他以后有什么打算吗？

他是个难得的好丈夫，从姐姐病到了直到她走的那天都不离不弃。

也感激他，要是没有他，我们全家人都会很慌。

他对我们从来都没好脸色，但我衷心祝福他感谢他，愿他有个新的开始。