remembrance to Yasmin Ahmad

Yasmin Ahmad, a renowned film director in malaysia's film and advertisement industry.
her pieces of art included: Sepet, Gubra, Mukhsin and numerous Petronas advertisements.
regrettably, she past away yesterday after a stroke,
she was 51-years-old.

she collapsed few days ago in a meeting at Sri Pentas and remained unconscious for the following days.
personally, i like the movie Sepet,
it's an award-winning movie about the love between a Chinese guy and a Malay girl.
it's the first local film that i be attracted to.
Yasmin Ahmad, she was a guy before.
she chose to be a woman in spite of dissuasion from Malay community.
even some Malays curse she goes to hell after died.
i hope she can rest in peace.
Cannes Film Festival award-winning advertisement - Tan Hong Ming

也許長痛不如短痛

once again, the god never let my family free from problems.

sigh..
few days ago, doctor informed us that there an tub obstruction inside my sister brain.
again, two choices.
first, do operation, temporary extend her life, she still will be lying on bed after operation.
second, don't do operation, opposite of the above, she still will be lying on bed after operation .
personally, i will choose the second.
majority of my family and my so called "brother-in-law" choose the second except my mom,
it doesn't mean we are cruel, cold-blooded.
we are sad and depressed seeing her suffered on bed for two years.
we ask ourselves, how longer we can maintain her life?
her life is as a sand glass, count downing how much the days she will beside us,
how many days we still can see her..
i know what my mom wants,
she just wants to extend my sister's life even only for one second.
but when there's no sign of hope, perhaps it's better for us to let her go.


姐，很慶倖能與你做了二十多年的姐妹。
姐，原諒我當時的任性，我的無知，
我希望你能有看到這裡的一天，
我期望能在於你繼續做二十年，三十年，四十年甚至永遠的姐妹。
若下輩子我們還能做姐妹，就讓我來照顧你吧



終於知道爲什麽這裡總是帶著淡淡的憂傷，那是因為這裡的主人並不快樂。。。
她。。。
只想要快樂。。。

depressed

comm. theories assignment is around the corner.
i spent a whole night to do crm, but rejected without by chan looked twice.
i skipped tana's class this morning, overslept. the result is i lost 20 marks of assignments.

chee hoe asked me why i absent, i shrugged my shoulder and said overslept, pretended as i didn't care the 20 marks.

but i heard there's a voice sneering at me: are you really don't care the 20 marks?? ahahaha... you are a loser...
i shook my head, there must be a delusion...

i mind the marks but not willing to admit it.

malaysia education system makes everyone bear in mind that marks is everything, i'm one of it...

sucks muhiyddin gambles the future of kids...

sigh...

seems i can't do well in anything...
advanced is far more difficult than i imagine, depressed depressed depressed.
no regret, no grumbling, do the best you can....
anymore other than this?
coincidentally found that rui ern also face the same problem these few days..
everyone is depressed, pressure from study, pressure from work, pressure from family...
i wish i could disappear without a trace....

the briefest post

i want to write something about the concept of One Malaysia by our Prime Minister Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak, but wait till i'm free first as now is 2 o'clock in the morning...



this post was updated 06 Oct 2010, 2.28 AM
at the end i did not express my view towards his 1Malaysia policy since the blogger was so lazy =p

bora bora island

new blog header image : bora bora island from tahiti, french.
it's a paradise!!!

a busy day

i woke up 8.30 am, it is considered early in the morning as my class starts on 11am.
i accompanied my mom went to wet market and then to college.
frankly, after practical i thought eventually i can back home rest, yahooo!!!
but, things always opposite with what you wish for.
as planning earlier, i would go shooting with tabby at Mid Valley Exhibition Center to cover Pet World exhibition.
however, tabby sent me a messages that she was fever, and ask me whether we can make it tomorrow instead.
i thought there would be only two of us go to cover the news, thus i replied Sunday is fine, take a good rest.
after the class, only i realized janet and siew lai would join also.
they didn't inform us.
that's why i said we have communication problem =.=
we took nearly two hours to cover the exhibition, and i learned some techniques about shooting e.g: white balance, panning and etc.
but regrettably my handphone is condemned, can't capture any pictures.
otherwise, pics of this post will be two huge San Bernards and Huskies.
wow, the San Bernards are almost same as my height, amazing!!!
after covered about the exhibition, we had our lunch at restaurant Yoshinova, a japanese restaurant that renowned with its beef rice.
definitely, i'm not going to order that set of meal.
i ordered a vege bowl and one miso soup, it costs me almost 10 bucks.
while janet and siew lai them only average seven bucks for a set of meal that included rice, soup, boiled egg and seven up.
my meal was comparatively expensive o.0, it's unfair...
vege costs more than beef???
and i really need to admit that both of them are energetic, after had lunch went shopping, hanging around till 8pm.
that's why in the end, i only managed back to wangsa maju at 9pm.
waiting in 191 for another half an hour, my eyes lid only can be opened for 5mm, almost fall asleep along the way back to genting kelang.
no doubt, metrobus has a "satisfied" efficiency.
perhaps 90% out of 100% tarcian that stay at setapak area agree with the above statement.
lastly, i was bad luck.
a ruthless driver bumped into my dad's wira in the way back from visiting sister.
and i'm the useless driver.
sigh...

a 15-minute post

i try to type this post within 10minutes,
but i know i couldn't do it as i have tonne of rubbish to be thrown after one week didn't update my blog.

firstly, i think i'm facing communication gap with broadcast student.
we are in different world in spite of us having the same target.
i think we shall be communicate quite well as both study about mass communication.
however, perhaps i only can handle mass communication
(which means communicate with a large group of people) rather than interpersonal communication.
i hope the assignment cooperate with broadcast's students will finish as soon as possible
maybe i'm over sensitive, i sense ivy doesn't like me and tabby.
she seems like prejudice towards us.
janet, siew lai them are quite friendly.

secondly, all the best to ah wing.
he is going to new zealand soon.

thirdly, within one week, i quarreled with shin kiat for a few times.
we are having bad mood recently.

fourthly, the pressure of assignments are getting heavier.

fifthly, few days didn't visit sister, god bless her recover soon...

lastly, i'm getting lazier, satwant must be slightly disappointed in my performance.
sorry sir, i will not skip class anymore.

i finished this post within 15 minutes.
and finally i realised why i'm not welcomed by guys.
haha...

fierce, boyish, strong...
i wonder if i could pretend to be more lovely, will the consequences change??