i'm not a substitute!!!

i'm a bit can't stand with you.
please do not assert your obligation towards me.
i'm just a normal human being, same as you i also will be weary.
please remember that i'm not a god or robot.
we have discussed that day, i will work on Monday and Tuesday, Saturday and Sunday for this week.
you will be working on Wednesday to Friday.
and now you requested for me to replace you on this Friday, it is a bit over.
I've said very clearly and certainly before, i only will work for 4days in a week.
the rest please settle you own.
this is your obligation, no matter what happen you have to be responsible of it.
otherwise, how you are going to face the cruelty of this society in the future with such attitude?
i really can't help you for this intense period as I'm also scurry my assignment.
if you were in my shoes, you also would feel apprehensive if i asked for such request, isn't it?

A lass and ordinary-looking

hmmm... now i really realized the differences of after well-dressed and before.
today i went to sing at greenbox karaoke with my buddies.

i went there by alone.
before i started talking about my personal experience, let me tell you all what i wore today.
i was wearing a pair of high heel shoe, a short pants and a white blouse.
as i get up the bus, the bus contractor who is a chinese keep on finding topic talk to me,
he asked : where are you going? what are u doing at there?
and definitely i answered politely.

lastly i reached sungai wang,
he even said :i give you my number, next time if you go sg.wang again, you can find me, i bring you try something interesting...
then i just smiled because i really didn't know how should i react....

afterthat, i had my lunch alone as bk them all finished having their lunch.
then the same thing happened when i finished my meal,
three guys entered that restaurant to have their meals.
i was facing to wall that time.
abruptly, one of them appeared in front of me and looking on the posts from customers that stick on the wall.
just within 5 seconds, he back to his seat.
i felt weird and at first i thought he wants to read all those posts,
but how could he finished reading within 5 seconds?
so i'm 90% sure he is purposely want to see how i'm look like @@.

moreover, i listen clearly about his conversation with his friends.
they were talking about:
"ei... that girl looks not bad ar..."
"hey, if you want to tackle her, faster go and get her phone number and blah blah blah..."

definitely they were talking about me because i was the only female customer inside the shop.
at the same time, i hope the cashier gave me the change as soon as he could so i can leave the shop as quick as i could.

the world is reality, if that time i was wearing a pair of jeans and t-shirt,
i don't think they will react in the same way...
the conclusion is everyone loves to see beautiful things, xD...

uncertainty avoidance

i learned this phrase during tutorial on malaysia: cultural and religious practice.
according to Hofstede, uncertainty avoidance means "the extent to which people within a culture are made nervous by unpredictable, unclear or unstructured situation,
therefore they try to avoid by maintaining strict codes of behavior and a belief in absolute truths."

in a word, uncertainty avoidance means the avoidance from something that is not unpredictable.
according to research conducted by Hofstede, majority malaysian is in the middle of high and low uncertainty avoidance.

future is unpredictable, i'm willing to take the challenge although i'm afraid of uncertainty at the same time.
that's the real meaning of LIFE. always progress and change.
if u do not change and maintain the same level after 10years, then you will be knockout by the tide of development.
if your future and lifen is arranged by elder or parents, then what's the meaning of LIFE?

what does romantic means to you?

after browsed to blog of some friends, most of them posted on how they celebrated valentine's day n birthday with their another half.
and quite many of them had gone through a romantic valentine's day.
thus, i recall my memory on how i celebrated those event.
i can say that truly it is not romantic at all.
it is the second valentine's day. he wasn't at kl last valentine's.
and this year no candlelight dinner, no flowers,we only went to watch movie and then back home on that day.
a cake,two candles and him accompanied my birthday.
in fact, i was really a bit disappointed about that, he didn't give me some surprise...
sigh...
but i am same as other girl.
maybe his mind is i am very realistic, thus he need not prepare all these.
but, sure i wish my dearest will act differently from normal in those special days.
however, dreaming is dreaming, reality is reality.
i have to back from dreamland to reality,he is my dearest.
i expected all these from the day we're together.
am i repent about my decision?
definitely i'm not regret.
i still love him, but i am sure he does not realize that no matter how realistic a girl is, she still hopes a cinderella can becomes a princess despite only for one night.
that's the different between men and women.
he doesn't understand that candlelight dinner,flowers that are "traditional gimmick" will always trap the heart of every girl.
small details that guy tend to ignore is actually what care by women.
i had said before it's better u give me all the cash if u use the money to buy i bouquet of roses to me.
at the end, i really din receive even a rose on valentine's day.
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what does romantic means to you?

new semester new beginning

it is the last semester in diploma, i feel like i do nothing within these two years.
and recently i was passive in doing everything include study, find a job.
maybe it is due to play online game too much, become addicted to it.
so start from now i MUST control the time of entertainment.
i restrict myself cannot play game more than 2 hours per day.

THINGS MUST DO
1. write an article everyday as a preparation to advanced diploma
2. read a book within two weeks
3. read English and Chinese newspapers everyday
4. learn all the English grammar
5. read an article and speak it out to improve my pronunciation

some new words i learn today
-bewildered,weary,haggard= tired, exhausted
-wrath=angry (example: her behavior kindles his wrath)
-kindle=raise
-onslaught=sudden attack (e.g war)
-trod=step (example: he has never trod on the place after that day)

now i'm reading the book of J.R.R.Tolkien, The Children of Hurin.
the story a bit similar to The Lord of The Ring.
my dear is going back home tomorrow.
sigh, see him after one week...