其实幸福并不是想像中的那么容易。
在世界上六十亿人口里要找到一个你爱他，他也爱你的人并不简单。
前几天与朋友无意中聊起各自的家人，她说她姐姐已经结婚了，生了个很可爱的小女娃，老公是个好丈夫，好爸爸，爱老婆也爱女儿。
原本不太融洽的关系因为一个小贝比而拉近了。
我好希望我的家也可以变成这样。
当姐姐告诉我们她要结婚了，我当时就想她一定会在众人面前步向人生中的另一个阶段，生活不再那么辛苦，之后生个小孩，快快乐乐地过生活。
但现实与所想的是有差的。
我多么希望姐姐能快点好起来，站起来，望着我们，对着我们笑。
姐，我只希望你能好起来。
不要让我们等那么久好吗？
24 June, 2008
10 June, 2008
am i fierce?
just now i sent shin kiat to ground floor by lift.
i scolded two kids that were simply press lift buttons.
i know i'm quite fierce at that time (not only at that time, it's i am fierce at all time)
i couldn't bear with naughty kids that simply playing with lift and affect others.
after we went out from lift, he told me not to be too fierce next time.
okay, i admit i was quite hot-tempered just now.
now i think back, i wonder why just now i get so angry?
it's really no point for me to scolded that two naughty kids...
he is right.
well, i promise you. next time i will be more fondness
i scolded two kids that were simply press lift buttons.
i know i'm quite fierce at that time (not only at that time, it's i am fierce at all time)
i couldn't bear with naughty kids that simply playing with lift and affect others.
after we went out from lift, he told me not to be too fierce next time.
okay, i admit i was quite hot-tempered just now.
now i think back, i wonder why just now i get so angry?
it's really no point for me to scolded that two naughty kids...
he is right.
well, i promise you. next time i will be more fondness
07 June, 2008
sweet breakfast ^o^
i opened my locker this morning and then i found two pieces of bread and one box of chocolate milk.
wa... so sweet^o^...
someone prepared breakfast for me...
dear, you are the best!!!
however, sometimes i really feel like i'm a guy from personalities while shinkiat's personalities are more like girl,perhaps??
he is gentle to me, while i'm rough and careless...
with my limited english, i couldn't find a proper adjectives to describe myself.
will u blame me due to i am not caring and not feminine??
wa... so sweet^o^...
someone prepared breakfast for me...
dear, you are the best!!!
however, sometimes i really feel like i'm a guy from personalities while shinkiat's personalities are more like girl,perhaps??
he is gentle to me, while i'm rough and careless...
with my limited english, i couldn't find a proper adjectives to describe myself.
will u blame me due to i am not caring and not feminine??
05 June, 2008
the disappearance of 7 people
i start the second year at TARC.
it is the second week of fourth semester.
as the opening of school, there are quite a number of people withdraw from JR.
ice,tracy,ranjini,hashvini,sheila,li bing are no longer with us.
while jia lerk repeats the subjects he fails.
34 people minus 7, left 27 people.
i heard that this year junior only 17 people.
wow, i'm doubting that will they be the same after one year and only left 10 person in one course??
is journalism really a tough subject and makes people give it up??
personally, i don't think so.
if you're really keen in being a journalist then you won't be given it up easily.
perhaps JR wasn't what they really want thus they choose to stop it earlier rather than wasting their time.
i'm agree with that.
if u found that u dislike or feel this is a mundane course,then you're supposed to quit it.
it's fine but please make sure ourselves won't regret of our action.
it is the second week of fourth semester.
as the opening of school, there are quite a number of people withdraw from JR.
ice,tracy,ranjini,hashvini,sheila,li bing are no longer with us.
while jia lerk repeats the subjects he fails.
34 people minus 7, left 27 people.
i heard that this year junior only 17 people.
wow, i'm doubting that will they be the same after one year and only left 10 person in one course??
is journalism really a tough subject and makes people give it up??
personally, i don't think so.
if you're really keen in being a journalist then you won't be given it up easily.
perhaps JR wasn't what they really want thus they choose to stop it earlier rather than wasting their time.
i'm agree with that.
if u found that u dislike or feel this is a mundane course,then you're supposed to quit it.
it's fine but please make sure ourselves won't regret of our action.
31 May, 2008
result reelased
Yeah!!! Eventually, my third semester result released.
Yesterday my stomach was filled with butterfly.
I get A- for translation, B+ for mass media and society, obtaining two credit hour for Taekwondo as well.
ShinKiat also pass all the subject and successfully further his study to advanced diploma.
Yeah!!! Yeah!!! Yeah!!!
Fortunately, he pass.
Otherwise, i have to separate with him one year.
Suddenly i'm quite proud of myself.
haha...
Despite i was having chicken pox that time, but i can pass the two subjects and get a unexpected result.
hohoho...
Shinkiat, I miss you o...
haha...
Yesterday my stomach was filled with butterfly.
I get A- for translation, B+ for mass media and society, obtaining two credit hour for Taekwondo as well.
ShinKiat also pass all the subject and successfully further his study to advanced diploma.
Yeah!!! Yeah!!! Yeah!!!
Fortunately, he pass.
Otherwise, i have to separate with him one year.
Suddenly i'm quite proud of myself.
haha...
Despite i was having chicken pox that time, but i can pass the two subjects and get a unexpected result.
hohoho...
Shinkiat, I miss you o...
haha...
27 May, 2008
NeuroTomotherapy
Tomotherapy is the future of radiation therapy.
when it applied to the brain it named NeuroTomotherapy.
this treatment is available at Singapore Brain,Spine,Nerve Center.
definitely this type of treatment will be worked better than traditional radiation therapy such as Gamma knife, X-knife, Cyberknife and Novalis.
when it applied to the brain it named NeuroTomotherapy.
this treatment is available at Singapore Brain,Spine,Nerve Center.
definitely this type of treatment will be worked better than traditional radiation therapy such as Gamma knife, X-knife, Cyberknife and Novalis.
21 May, 2008
special gift from demo power
I went PJ again training for the next project, Spontex gloves.
I'm really tired of going there once a week.
It wastes my time and money.
But today's training is slightly different from previous.
It improves my general knowledge.
Well, let me briefly explain the five types gloves of Spontex and the yellow mop as well.
I'm definitely not trying to push the sales of Spontex.
By the way, i just want to recall my memory since i'm quite free now.
First of all, our hands are the first area contact with anything and hands will show the true age.
Our face can be staying flawless and radiance as long as you have money.
Lotions and creams are essential in taking good care of our hand but they cannot prevent us contacting with dirt, grease, detergent etc.
Thus, we NOW have a solution. It's SPONTEX GLOVES!!!
The first one, DAILY DEFENSE
With its cotton flock lining, it can absorbs perspiration thus our hands will feel more comfortable.
Beside, it has long cuff for us to turn back to catch drips.
It is durable and heavier compare to other range of products.
The second one, SENSITIVE.
From it's name we could know that this product is for those who has sensitive skin.
Made up from natural latex and included cotton flock lining as well.
The third one, COMFY.
This one is the lightest in weight and ultra thin. It is tailored to meet consumers' needs.
High flexibility and sensitivity make this gloves to be a super duper product!!!(hahaha...too emphasize on it)
And the last one is FRESH LEMON.
This type of gloves is lemon-scented, thus it is suitable to use it when washing toilet.
But not everyone likes it.
After the briefing, suddenly client visited us and wanted to look at our performance.
Wen-ji said that our presentation are well-done and gave us some special gift,which are three sachet of nescafe 3in1 and sanitary pads.
She said this was the first time client praised about ts's performance.
haha,that's mean my performance was quite good as well....
I'm really tired of going there once a week.
It wastes my time and money.
But today's training is slightly different from previous.
It improves my general knowledge.
Well, let me briefly explain the five types gloves of Spontex and the yellow mop as well.
I'm definitely not trying to push the sales of Spontex.
By the way, i just want to recall my memory since i'm quite free now.
First of all, our hands are the first area contact with anything and hands will show the true age.
Our face can be staying flawless and radiance as long as you have money.
Lotions and creams are essential in taking good care of our hand but they cannot prevent us contacting with dirt, grease, detergent etc.
Thus, we NOW have a solution. It's SPONTEX GLOVES!!!
The first one, DAILY DEFENSE
With its cotton flock lining, it can absorbs perspiration thus our hands will feel more comfortable.
Beside, it has long cuff for us to turn back to catch drips.
It is durable and heavier compare to other range of products.
The second one, SENSITIVE.
From it's name we could know that this product is for those who has sensitive skin.
Made up from natural latex and included cotton flock lining as well.
The third one, COMFY.
This one is the lightest in weight and ultra thin. It is tailored to meet consumers' needs.
High flexibility and sensitivity make this gloves to be a super duper product!!!(hahaha...too emphasize on it)
And the last one is FRESH LEMON.
This type of gloves is lemon-scented, thus it is suitable to use it when washing toilet.
But not everyone likes it.
After the briefing, suddenly client visited us and wanted to look at our performance.
Wen-ji said that our presentation are well-done and gave us some special gift,which are three sachet of nescafe 3in1 and sanitary pads.
She said this was the first time client praised about ts's performance.
haha,that's mean my performance was quite good as well....
09 May, 2008
Genting Trip
yesterday i went to genting highlands along with shin kiat and jong yen.
yeah!!!long time i didn't visit to there.
the temperature is far colder than i expect.
global warming seems like doesn't affect genting highlands
i was wearing a short pants and shivering.
a jacket didn't enough for me to get rid myself from coldness.
even inside a car, i still felt i was inside an igloo.
by the way, this trip is really happy^^...
06 May, 2008
blogs of political leaders
Minister of & Regional Development
Tan Sri Muhammad Mohd Taib
http://www.muhammadmuhdtaib.com
Dr.Chua Soi Lek
http://drchua9.blogspot.com
Minister of Domestic Trade & Consumer Affairs
Datuk Shahrir Abdul Samad
http://shahrirsamad.blogspot.com
Chief Minister of Melaka
Datuk Seri Hj. Mohd Ali b. Mohd Rustam
http://www.mohdalirustam.blogspot.com
MP of Jelutong,Penang
Ooi Chuan Aun
http://www.jeffooi.com
Former Menteri Besar of Selangor
Datuk Seri Dr Khir Toyo
http://www.drkhir.com
MP of Ipoh Timur,Perak
Lim Kit Siang
http://blog.limkitsiang.com
Tan Sri Muhammad Mohd Taib
http://www.muhammadmuhdtaib.com
Dr.Chua Soi Lek
http://drchua9.blogspot.com
Minister of Domestic Trade & Consumer Affairs
Datuk Shahrir Abdul Samad
http://shahrirsamad.blogspot.com
Chief Minister of Melaka
Datuk Seri Hj. Mohd Ali b. Mohd Rustam
http://www.mohdalirustam.blogspot.com
MP of Jelutong,Penang
Ooi Chuan Aun
http://www.jeffooi.com
Former Menteri Besar of Selangor
Datuk Seri Dr Khir Toyo
http://www.drkhir.com
MP of Ipoh Timur,Perak
Lim Kit Siang
http://blog.limkitsiang.com
04 May, 2008
helpless
God decides the time we leave the world.
i believe that everyone is equally in the eyes of death.
No matter you are poor or rich, you bring nothing except your soul and merit when you left the world.
and i believe the existence of hell and heaven.
i don't know why i type all these.
that's a lot of unhappiness, but sometimes it's hard to say it out.
so i rather choose to type it.
that was quite a number of things happened to my family recently.
i am truly hope things could be never happened before but it's impossible.
as it's impossible, thus we have to accept.
we can't escape from the reality.
i keep on telling myself unhappiness will disappear and life will be joyous again.
我被压得块头不过气了，就连与你讲电话时眼泪也会不自禁的流下。
我真的不想这样。。。
我只能看着姐姐虚弱地躺在床上，然而我却不能帮她做点什么。
我好怕真的好怕她就这样走了，我们再也看不到她。
我知道我应该要坚强要有信心，可是有时候我真的不想假装没事因为我的心真的很痛。
就让我再这一刻懦弱一下，好吗？
姐，答应我们。
为了我们，为了姐夫，为了你自己，你一定要好起来。。。
i believe that everyone is equally in the eyes of death.
No matter you are poor or rich, you bring nothing except your soul and merit when you left the world.
and i believe the existence of hell and heaven.
i don't know why i type all these.
that's a lot of unhappiness, but sometimes it's hard to say it out.
so i rather choose to type it.
that was quite a number of things happened to my family recently.
i am truly hope things could be never happened before but it's impossible.
as it's impossible, thus we have to accept.
we can't escape from the reality.
i keep on telling myself unhappiness will disappear and life will be joyous again.
我被压得块头不过气了，就连与你讲电话时眼泪也会不自禁的流下。
我真的不想这样。。。
我只能看着姐姐虚弱地躺在床上，然而我却不能帮她做点什么。
我好怕真的好怕她就这样走了，我们再也看不到她。
我知道我应该要坚强要有信心，可是有时候我真的不想假装没事因为我的心真的很痛。
就让我再这一刻懦弱一下，好吗？
姐，答应我们。
为了我们，为了姐夫，为了你自己，你一定要好起来。。。
30 April, 2008
遗嘱
今天我们去了律师楼帮姐姐立了遗嘱。之前姐姐买的那间屋子，受益人是我和二姐。
要是真的走了，我们就不用供那间屋子。
姐夫说姐你一直以来都希望我们可以有个家，安安稳稳的家。那么我们全家人都不用一直搬家。
可是姐，如果那间屋子使用你得生命换来得。我宁可不要。
我要的是姐你健健康康地过日子。那间屋子我们来供就好了。
姐，电疗以及动手术很痛苦是不是？
我知道很痛，但我们问你时，你都摇头。
我知道你不说是不想我们难过，但看你这样我真的很心痛。
看你在遗嘱盖下手印的那一刻，我真的很怕很难过，我不想哭可是我真的忍不住。。。
我没想过连续剧的情节会发生在我们的家。
医生说你脑癌末期，不知道几时会走。
我真的不要那间屋子，姐你好起来，好吗？
姐夫说他帮你去庙里算过，你今年有四劫，而且一劫比一劫凶险。
就算真的过了这些劫数，你也很难向以前那样过生活。
我真的希望不是。
现在看你那么痛苦，我的心也很痛。
姐夫说你得命是来还债的，还家里的债，平常薪水有多少，就给家里多少。
他说的对。。。
一直以来你都在为家里付出。。。
如果我之前懂事点，懂得帮你分担，那么你得压力就不会那么大，每个月要供车供屋还要给学费生活费。
连午餐都只吃一个五十仙的面包解决。
姐，对不起。。。
我们现在真的不知道要怎样帮你。。。
我们真的舍不得你走，你一定要好起来。。。
要是真的走了，我们就不用供那间屋子。
姐夫说姐你一直以来都希望我们可以有个家，安安稳稳的家。那么我们全家人都不用一直搬家。
可是姐，如果那间屋子使用你得生命换来得。我宁可不要。
我要的是姐你健健康康地过日子。那间屋子我们来供就好了。
姐，电疗以及动手术很痛苦是不是？
我知道很痛，但我们问你时，你都摇头。
我知道你不说是不想我们难过，但看你这样我真的很心痛。
看你在遗嘱盖下手印的那一刻，我真的很怕很难过，我不想哭可是我真的忍不住。。。
我没想过连续剧的情节会发生在我们的家。
医生说你脑癌末期，不知道几时会走。
我真的不要那间屋子，姐你好起来，好吗？
姐夫说他帮你去庙里算过，你今年有四劫，而且一劫比一劫凶险。
就算真的过了这些劫数，你也很难向以前那样过生活。
我真的希望不是。
现在看你那么痛苦，我的心也很痛。
姐夫说你得命是来还债的，还家里的债，平常薪水有多少，就给家里多少。
他说的对。。。
一直以来你都在为家里付出。。。
如果我之前懂事点，懂得帮你分担，那么你得压力就不会那么大，每个月要供车供屋还要给学费生活费。
连午餐都只吃一个五十仙的面包解决。
姐，对不起。。。
我们现在真的不知道要怎样帮你。。。
我们真的舍不得你走，你一定要好起来。。。
26 April, 2008
残酷的现实
现实真的是残酷的。
以为一切都已经过去了，但原来一切还有续集。
老天，请你放过我姐好吗？
我真的很想回到过去，回到那我们一家六人一起开开心心的日子。
当晚我知道过去的已经是历史了，人是无法改变历史的。
医生诊断出姐你的脑里有癌细胞，我们犹如晴天霹雳。
本来还以为一切已经完，原来老天还没放过你。
姐，你一定要没事....
我们都在等着你。。。
以为一切都已经过去了，但原来一切还有续集。
老天，请你放过我姐好吗？
我真的很想回到过去，回到那我们一家六人一起开开心心的日子。
当晚我知道过去的已经是历史了，人是无法改变历史的。
医生诊断出姐你的脑里有癌细胞，我们犹如晴天霹雳。
本来还以为一切已经完，原来老天还没放过你。
姐，你一定要没事....
我们都在等着你。。。
15 April, 2008
celebration of cherry's birthday
just now we celebrated birthday with cherry.
but she seems like not happy and a bit moody.
why will like this?
haiz...
is she doesn't happy with the celebration or she has something to think but doesn't say it out...
why why why?
why i feel like the relationship between us become estrange?
07 April, 2008
the increasing of wages
My wages has been increasing from rm70 per day to rm120 per day.
It's a good news for me and as well as it is a bad news for me.
Take more money means you have to do more. I expect it.
in the other hand, the more money you get, the more easier you will be controlled by money.
Money is not everything but truly without money we can't survive.
If i work every week, then the time i meet with with shinkiat will be lesser and lesser.
I'm his girlfriend, i shouldn't let him feel alone.
I'm really afraid that he will tell me: i have a girlfriend but why i didn't feel the existence of her?
I feel so sorry of him.
why he likes me?
I'm not feminine, not thoughtfulness, boyish and always no free time accompany him...
It's a good news for me and as well as it is a bad news for me.
Take more money means you have to do more. I expect it.
in the other hand, the more money you get, the more easier you will be controlled by money.
Money is not everything but truly without money we can't survive.
If i work every week, then the time i meet with with shinkiat will be lesser and lesser.
I'm his girlfriend, i shouldn't let him feel alone.
I'm really afraid that he will tell me: i have a girlfriend but why i didn't feel the existence of her?
I feel so sorry of him.
why he likes me?
I'm not feminine, not thoughtfulness, boyish and always no free time accompany him...
31 March, 2008
wrecked in pieces
i broke the pair of couple ring that we bought yesterday....
sad... :(
sad... :(
i just wore it once, not exceed 24 hours then now it became such condition...
the damn mosquitoes!!!
perhaps i am not suitable to be the owner of this ring...
a meaningful ring was broken by me.... (sobbing...)
i am the murderer of this ring...
the damn mosquitoes!!!
perhaps i am not suitable to be the owner of this ring...
a meaningful ring was broken by me.... (sobbing...)
i am the murderer of this ring...
第一次...
难得这星期放假
，这是第三次与你一起去看戏哦。。。
看了部老师嫁老大，剧情超搞笑。。。
还有我很冷的时候，你握着我的手，手温暖，心也很温暖哦，呵呵。。。
之后你也买了条水晶链送我，你自己就买了个七星阵。。。
不过不要乱花钱啦。。。
还有我们有情侣戒了咧，呵呵。。。
今天好开心哦^0^。。。
我想起昨天我问你：当初为什么你会喜欢我？
你答我说：一见钟情。。。
还说我乱放电，把你电的惨惨。。。
哇。。。我哪有乱放电，更没电你咧。。。其实我不相信一见钟情的咧。。。
因为我认为人与人之间是要相处久了才知道彼此的个性。。
加上很多人都说我的心是不容易被接近的，不过还好你真的很有毅力很坚持。。。
不然的话今天我们也不会一起了。。。
我也知道我之前也有不对，真的对不起啦。。。
你第一次上来我家，我现在想回觉得好好笑。。。
被我二姐看到，我妈还跟我说：欣雅，你跟他讲，他不上来你就不要跟他出去。。
其实我也没想到那么快，你就会上来我家。。。
不过这样也好，堵住她们的嘴了。。。
我也已经
没新闻价值了，咔咔
，这是第三次与你一起去看戏哦。。。看了部老师嫁老大，剧情超搞笑。。。
还有我很冷的时候，你握着我的手，手温暖，心也很温暖哦，呵呵。。。
之后你也买了条水晶链送我，你自己就买了个七星阵。。。
不过不要乱花钱啦。。。
还有我们有情侣戒了咧，呵呵。。。
今天好开心哦^0^。。。
我想起昨天我问你：当初为什么你会喜欢我？
你答我说：一见钟情。。。
还说我乱放电，把你电的惨惨。。。
哇。。。我哪有乱放电，更没电你咧。。。其实我不相信一见钟情的咧。。。
因为我认为人与人之间是要相处久了才知道彼此的个性。。
加上很多人都说我的心是不容易被接近的，不过还好你真的很有毅力很坚持。。。
不然的话今天我们也不会一起了。。。
我也知道我之前也有不对，真的对不起啦。。。
你第一次上来我家，我现在想回觉得好好笑。。。
被我二姐看到，我妈还跟我说：欣雅，你跟他讲，他不上来你就不要跟他出去。。
其实我也没想到那么快，你就会上来我家。。。
不过这样也好，堵住她们的嘴了。。。
我也已经
没新闻价值了，咔咔
10 March, 2008
以前的我
看回一年多以前写的心情日记，套句阿娇的名言：以前的我自己好傻好天真。
一年半前的我写：我一定会在传销里成功的。
而现在呢？
我成功了吗？
没有。。。
但是倒是成长了不少。
妄想改变这现实的世界。。。
真的好傻。。。
我后悔了吗？
我不后悔参与过传销公司，用了兩千五買了個教訓。
它教了我不少东西，也让我看清蛮多事物。
我自己发觉我都一直在成长，这是好事。
人也不小了，我也心智不想一直是个小女孩。
一年半前的我写：我一定会在传销里成功的。
而现在呢？
我成功了吗？
没有。。。
但是倒是成长了不少。
妄想改变这现实的世界。。。
真的好傻。。。
我后悔了吗？
我不后悔参与过传销公司，用了兩千五買了個教訓。
它教了我不少东西，也让我看清蛮多事物。
我自己发觉我都一直在成长，这是好事。
人也不小了，我也心智不想一直是个小女孩。
02 February, 2007
不想长大
今天心情闷闷的,
为什么我会落到这个地步呢?
人要是永远不长大那该多好,长大了就要烦很多事.
我可不可以回到从前?
很累..........
曾经怨过二姐带我进LB现在变成这样....
不然我现在还是读着书,过着我的学生生活,
不用像现在这样每天拿鞋,
我很怕万一我跌下来.....
但我更恨我自己,讨厌我自己,
恨我自己不争气,
恨我自己不勇敢,
我真的很讨厌我自己....
要是我争气点,爸妈就不用那么辛苦了......
我真的很愧疚.....
我早就想哭了,但是不想让别人发现才忍到现在.
我还是卸不下我的EGO.....
我不能让自己赤裸裸地摊开在别人面前.
是我心防重吧.
总是希望让别人看见我好的一面,不让别人发现我的脆弱.
为什么我会落到这个地步呢?
人要是永远不长大那该多好,长大了就要烦很多事.
我可不可以回到从前?
很累..........
曾经怨过二姐带我进LB现在变成这样....
不然我现在还是读着书,过着我的学生生活,
不用像现在这样每天拿鞋,
我很怕万一我跌下来.....
但我更恨我自己,讨厌我自己,
恨我自己不争气,
恨我自己不勇敢,
我真的很讨厌我自己....
要是我争气点,爸妈就不用那么辛苦了......
我真的很愧疚.....
我早就想哭了,但是不想让别人发现才忍到现在.
我还是卸不下我的EGO.....
我不能让自己赤裸裸地摊开在别人面前.
是我心防重吧.
总是希望让别人看见我好的一面,不让别人发现我的脆弱.
30 October, 2006
学习
我每天都在学习,学习坚强,学习不哭.
学习打电话时不要害怕.
被人放飞机了,不要难过,因为他们没空,不能怪他们.
学习说话的技巧,学习早上时要向别人打招呼.
思想乐观,向正面想,不要气馁,人生的道路不一定平坦.
但我们的生活因此有了酸甜苦辣.
SIMON常常说他没空,我想他是真的没空.
KENNY常常放我飞机,我想有时下大雨,他不要出来是正常的.
因为传销,因为LB,
我的人生从此不同了.
谢谢你.
谢谢你们,让我学习变坚强,
学习跌倒了不要哭,站起来继续走下去.
17 October, 2006
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