helpless

God decides the time we leave the world.
i believe that everyone is equally in the eyes of death.
No matter you are poor or rich, you bring nothing except your soul and merit when you left the world.
and i believe the existence of hell and heaven.
i don't know why i type all these.
that's a lot of unhappiness, but sometimes it's hard to say it out.
so i rather choose to type it.
that was quite a number of things happened to my family recently.
i am truly hope things could be never happened before but it's impossible.
as it's impossible, thus we have to accept.
we can't escape from the reality.
i keep on telling myself unhappiness will disappear and life will be joyous again.
我被压得块头不过气了，就连与你讲电话时眼泪也会不自禁的流下。
我真的不想这样。。。
我只能看着姐姐虚弱地躺在床上，然而我却不能帮她做点什么。
我好怕真的好怕她就这样走了，我们再也看不到她。
我知道我应该要坚强要有信心，可是有时候我真的不想假装没事因为我的心真的很痛。
就让我再这一刻懦弱一下，好吗？
姐，答应我们。
为了我们，为了姐夫，为了你自己，你一定要好起来。。。