我难过

我很难受，可是为了你，我忍，因为我爱你，所以也要爱你的家人。

我受了委屈，可却只是感到你一味地在指责我，连面子书谈话箱也突然关了。

这是尊重吗？

我在流泪，你又知道吗？

我的心在淌血，你有帮它止血吗？

我早该知道我要靠我自己，不应该依赖你。

我早该知道当事情发生时，你不会站在我这里。

这样是尊重吗？

在你的话里，我感觉不到你有维护我。

不是应该保护我吗？

我是多么的难堪。。

流泪不是射手座常常会做的事，除非射手女真的很难过，可是常常流泪却是为了你。

我为什么要把自己变成这样？我想变回以前的我。

心痛了，心累了。

我们未来的路怎样走下去？我们还能一起走下去吗？我们还能走多远？

Marriage is the tomb of love?

The grand royal weeding finally comes to end when Prince William and Kate Middleton held the wedding ceremony at Westminster Abbey.

Wish they live happily ever after, hope the tragedy of Princess Diana and Prince Charles will not ever happen.

A combination of handsome guy (indeed he is handsome though there is a crisis of being bald soon) and pretty girl is always fulfilled the taste of audiences.

However, in reality, the Prince and Princess are just as commoners. They will argue with each other, they might lose interest to each other after few years.

Pretty and sexy girls are all over the world, and he is a prince, can he withstands with temptations?

Happily ever after only exist in fairy tales.

Marriage means responsibilities, obligations.

That's why people enjoy dating rather than marry.

Hi Blogspot, Long Time No See

Hey, my dearest Blogspot, i'm back.

Do you miss me?

Due to the suspension of Internet connection,

i could not update my facebook status and blogging for nearly two weeks.

I miss Blogspot and facebook so much, haha.

Hence, now let me talk about the 1Malaysia email project. This initiative was raised by the brilliant and wise Malaysia Prime Minister.

He said this approach can effectively accelerate the growth of Malaysia ICT industry,

spearheaded by Tricubes Berhad.

More than that, PM claimed the RM50 million investment will be made available through private funding.

i wonder how reliable is this.

What's the rationale of 1Malaysia email since i can fully utilize the functions of hotmail, yahoo mail, gmail?

Would the applied technology more advance Google and Microsoft technology?

Can't the government be more realistic?

The 1Malaysia email approach is innovative and ridiculous.

Our beloved PM wanna turn Malaysians to be the laughing stocks of foreigners?

Beastly - A romance fantasy

Typing this post with my new Asus lappie, this is the maiden post for my lappie.

I watched Beastly, the movie on monday.

Though it is a romance genre of movie, i watch it alone.

Starring by Vanessa Hudgens and Alex Pettyfer,

this movie somehow below my expectation.

The length of movie was about one and half hour,

personally i think this movie less romance scene,

there was not much psychological depiction of the process of Kyle Kingson (Alex Pettyfer) has a crush with Lindy (Vanessa Hudgens).

The story plot is simple and it's hard for me to identify any climax.

Though Kyle Kingson turned to a beast after he pissed off Kendra The Witch,

still he looks awesome and cool as the advancement of Hollywood makeup skills.

The story of romance, beauty and the beast are always the attention catcher for female audiences.

Overall, i rate this movie 75 out of 100 marks.

(Ps: Alex Pettyfer is indeed smexy, LOL...)

Love is Never Ugly

Pray for Japan

Two days ago, Japan experienced an ever worst 8.9 magnitude earthquake since the Great Kanto Earthquake, caused the death over 100,000 people.

officials confirmed that 1,400 people were killed in the quake,

more than 3,000 people are dead or missing, death toll is rising.

Officials anticipate another 7.0 magnitude of earthquake p

ossibly further damaging the already fragile nuclear plant.

nuclear plant is on the edge of meltdown,

Quoted this from ABC news:

"If there's a secondary earthquake, that could tip the whole thing over. Pipes could break, leaks could take place and even as you put sea water in, the water could bleed out, creating a full scale meltdown. That's the nightmare scenario."

if nuclear plant meltdown, radiation would disperse, threaten the health of human beings and environment, that's the worst scenarios, can't imagine

that...

Let's us pray for Japan, let's us contribute some minor effort to hope Japan citizens in a safe condition.

Let's us pray the world will without WAR, without NATURAL DISASTERS and without DISEASES, then it will be an utopia.

The Revenge of The Bald

Due to the skipped class yesterday, I Q bal revenge against the whole class.

Is the word 'revenge' appropriate in this context? xD

He added another assignment for us.

Unfortunately, our (refers to those who skipped class yesterday) ignorant caused the whole class to compulsory complete another 500 words assignment.

While my task is a 1000words assignment.

i sincerely apologized to all my groupmates of my behaviour.

though ken, jia wei and chun wai said they are okay with this,

but, my mistake involved the whole group.

So sorry about that >.<

I'm nervous about the uncertainties when cooperate with my groupmates in a totally new environment.

Her striking performance

Following her outburst on Tuesday, once again steph was under the limelight by her attitude and presentation during student seminar.

Quoted from Lau,

below are the respond from lecturers on her attitude.

Mr. S was unhappy after steph questioned him:

" i wanna ask question to the panel, why there's no quality in the student's work one."

He didn't even bother her when she did not show up during certificate ceremony.

Dr. T said: " so shameful "

Ms. Chan said: " I wonder why she can't just let it go, dun bother about anything "

Steph, even i'm not close to you,

however, we've been in the same class and same course for four years.

If this is the way you want to end your student life, i have nothing to say.

All the best to you, that's all what i can wish you.

Everything has a boundary,

audiences booing to you,

people disapprove you,

lecturers feel ashamed of you,

the name and reputation of AJR was tainted by you.

Is that what you wish?

I have totally no idea why in a sudden steph can become offensive, provoking and irritating. Things already occurred, why can't just let it go?

Any more striking performance from you for tomorrow class?

Another thing, this is dedicated to the "benda benda aunty"

Pity of you since you need to use personal attack to get the attention from I Q bal.

Is this your last resort to pander I Q bal?

Dramatic Days

These two days were considered as dramatic in my life.

It prompted me to blog about this.

In study, one more people relinquished the chance to go UK.

In life, my sister is now experiencing a crisis in her relationship.

I guess the whole journalism students knew I Q BAL is disfavouring steph.

Yesterday, our pairworks poster only got a 2.2 (which means second class lower).

sigh, i expect we could at least get a 2.1

Desperately, she said she might end up with a second class lower in degree.

Desperately Steph said she would think twice on her decision for not pursuing the three-month summer course.

These words still fresh around my ears.

Now, i can assert that she won't join the row with the probability of 99%.

Today, she yelled at lecture hall after I Q Bal delayed his teaching consequent of students didn't read journals.

She said: "I HATE F**KING INCOMPETENCE~!!!"

i think it's kinda AWESOME~~

Indeed I agree with her in certain extent.

Why those who had read journals need to provide answer for those incompetent?

It's unfair for them.

But, is her reactions exaggerate?

In life, a relationship crisis was happened in my sister.

i wonder how she will deal with this issue.

Break up? Or continue to be with him?

Love is never be an easy question.

突然想起

突然想起我好久都没把心静下来，

好好地聆听自己的心。

突然想起似乎与这社会脱节了，

现在流行什么样的玩意儿了？

突然想起好久都没为自己添加几件新衣裳，

陈年旧衣静静地等候我再度把它穿上。

突然想起人心是险恶的，

只因我相信人之初，性本善。

突然好想像其他女生那样自恋地拍照，

好好抓紧青春的尾巴

突然好想逃避现实，

可以预见未来的路并不好走

突然好想把长发剪去，

短发会适合我吗？

THIS IS A LOW TRAFFIC BLOG

definitely this is a low traffic blog,

not many of my close friends know i do blogging.

my bf knows i do blogging, however he seldom visit here.

I did display the blog url on my facebook profile,

yet i'm the one comprising majority of the 282 visits.

i think this may due to i refuse and unwillingly to promote my blog in a high-profile way.

I blog not for any purpose, it simply a platform to venture my thoughts.

I'm loyal to my principle.

A high visit stat might make me delightful, but it lost the true meaning of blogging.

Just now i displayed about Nuffnang ads on my blog.

Just simply make for fun, i don't expect i can get any paid from the advertisers since THIS IS A LOW TRAFFIC BLOG.

Sicking of money

Going to have two job interviews later, one locates at Menara Maxis another company locates at Damansara Intan.

Hopefully i could grab the job offer from the company at Menara Maxis since it's more transportation-friendly for me.

Yearning of money

Dying of boredom

Thus, please offer me some job, ok?

I'm going to have a Dubai stopover along my trip to Manchester.

It adds approximate 800 bucks into the original air-ticket price for a 21 hours stay at Dubai.

Sounds expensive?

Indeed it is.

For the short stay at Dubai, an adventurous desert trip is a must.

i will experience a 45 minutes dune bushing,

camel ride,

hubbly bubbly,

henna

and etc.

Of course, i'm not going to take the hubbly bubbly (or known as hookah) since it's another form of smoking.

can't wait the time to come.

Officially Graduated

Received my final year, final semester result today. Frankly, i'm not satisfied with it.

After underwent a long student life, it's my time to say goodbye to Tunku Abdul Rahman College, a place that breeds and sharpens my so-called talent for four years.

I reminisce my diploma life, I start sharpening my writing skill,

English is not my mother-tongue, the despicable emotion of Puan Rohana on non-English mother-tongue students is carved in my mind.

I strive to survive in a world that full with English writing.

I was bombarded everyday by assignments, theories and journals.

I will never forget how me and Tina to get in touch with Yew Tiong Lok for assignments purpose, it's a tough process.

I will never forget the day of me and my group-mates who tried our best to produce our piece of work.

I will never forget K'ng, who helped me completing my feature writing assignment by contacting Paralympic weight-lifting athlete, Cheok Kon Fatt.

I will never forget the three-month internship at BERNAMA, where a life full with challenges and eventualities.

I will never forget the difficult time when my sister leave my family during my study.

I will also never forget Captivate, the company I've been working as trial specialist along my college student life.

I will never forget lecturers that pass and fail me in the study.

Four years ago, my piece of writing full with shoddy grammar,

deficient vocabulary, weak points and weak arguments.

After four years, I am still incompetent in English writing.

I already tried my best and pour all my efforts.

I know i will never be comparable with Jian Hao, Ah Yia, Tabby or Steph.

But i also know there was no one as comparable with me since everyone is a unique artwork from The Mother of Nature.

An Advanced Diploma may sound nothing for others,

but it symbolizes another milestone in my life.

I stepped on Journalism course with trembling foots, shaky determination and weak faith.

Here, I dedicate my so-so result to my family, my friends, my lecturers,

my coursemates, everyone that lend me a hand, support me and also whoever that taught me the lesson of life.

Thanks to you all.

口是心非

明明很在乎，却装作无所谓

两个人一起，我反而觉得更寂寞。。。

You're Not Alone

i hope someone could sing this song for me =D

fall in love with this song,

sadly i can't find this song on youtube.

"You're Not Alone by Shayne Ward"

She's getting out of bed
At half past ten
She starts to comb her hair
Just an ordinary day
She looks at her reflection
Off the wall
Why do I care at all
Just an ordinary day
An ordinary day
That's hurting you
Don't hide out inside yourself
If you only let the sunshine on you
I promise you
You're not alone
When the lights go out at night
When you're feeling lost inside
You're not alone
You're not alone
When your world is falling down
I will be the one around
You're not alone
You're not alone
She's waiting for the bus it's 12.59
She's sitting on her own
Just an ordinary day
She's looking at the people
Passing her by
It could be you and I
They would never dream
Of slowing down
To see if she's alright
Don't hide out inside yourself
If you only let the sunshine on you
I promise you
You're not alone
When the lights go out at night
When you're feeling lost inside
You're not alone
You're not alone
When your world is falling down
I will be the one around
You're not alone
I'm hurting
She's hurting
I'm hurting, she's hurting
I'm so alone
When the lights go out at night
When you're feeling lost inside
You're not alone
I will be the one around

Some forgotten blogs

Counting by fingers, i been established few blogs since i get to know Internet.

Prior to blogspot, footsteps could be found on Friendster blog, Vox.com, 无名小站,

what else do i have?

i think that's all the blogs i have.

Definitely blogspot is the long-life ever and most active update.

Usually there are few reasons urged me to open a new blog.

Firstly, attracted by friends.

Secondly, design of the blog.

Thirdly, the user interfaces.

however, the reasons that impulsed me to open a new blog also became the reasons i dragged them out of my blog list.

有病呻吟

明明没什么不开心的，但我只想叹气.

明明没啥东西好烦，但脑袋就是一直转啊转.

感情顺利，家人和乐，朋友融洽，那么我到底想叹什么气?

其实我不是没东西好烦恼，只烦恼一个问题.

就是钱啊.

之后钱就会带来连锁效应，就会衍生各种各样的问题.

唉，我也不想那么市侩.

人常常说知足常乐，可能我不知足吧.

每每手头上好不容易有了些钱，就自然而然的会有管道迫使我的口袋里空空如也.

真的好累欸，不知道还要过这样的日子多久.

KOJADI loan的事能不能让我顺顺利利找到担保人，顺利借到钱?

基于前车之鉴，我真的担心这次又在一波三折.

can god makes my life easier?

please fulfill my minor wish.

Dying of boredom

As mentioned above, this is the most bored chinese new year that i ever had.

I really CAN'T STAND IT anymore~!!!!

Due to the cataract surgery, my mom is prohibited from stepping out from house.

thus, the whole family has to accompany her.

Without visiting to any relatives house,

the Tioman Island plan was cancelled in a sudden.

*sobbing*

No new clothes, no vacation, no angpau.

I'm in the edge of dying of boredom.

one more thing, gonna pay 420 bucks for KOJADI loan.

the Penang trip with my dear is expected to be abrogated.

*sigh*

彩虹的家

电影"天天好天"主题曲, MV很棒哦 =)

一个人的电影，一个人的晚餐

終於下定決心去觀賞了自己期待已久的两部本地贺岁片，

那就是"天天好天"

以及"笑着回家啦". =)

縱然新年的氣氛一年隨著一年慢慢減少

但看賀歲片也许也会找回那麼一點點的新年氣氛吧. =D

两部片的性质都不一样.

"天天好天"倾向于感人，着重于亲子之间的描写，還真的流眼淚了呢。

电影主题曲"彩虹的家"真的蛮好听.

而"笑着回家"则是喜剧，加上梁智强，Adflin Shauki等等搞笑艺人的演出，的确令这部片子笑料不断.

令我感到惊讶的就是高藝，如今已亭亭玉立，真的女大十八變.

*高藝就是在“老師嫁老大”這部電影里飾演報復范文芳的那個少年*

看完了當然就是醫肚子，還遇到怪怪的外國佬要請我喝水.

一個人看電影，一個人的晚餐其實沒想像中的寂寞，還蠻不錯哦 =)

下次要挑战一个人的旅行，第一站就是槟城，yeah =D

心隔了片海样？

吃着有点味道不佳的咖喱面，想起了那位常常为我下厨烹饪的人。

隔了片海，心的距离是否也是隔了一个海洋呢？

昨天与他闹得有点不愉快，考完了试，没想到我们见面的时间还是一样少啊。。。（苦笑中）

都已经三年了，彼此见到朋友的时间还多过看到对方。

这不是第一次，而也不会是最后一次。

我希望我成为他理想中温柔体贴，善解人意，成熟独立的那个人。

他忙着，我不去烦他。

他累了，我祝他美梦。

每晚电话来了，有的就只是晚安。

他问我：不然你要说什么呢？

我心想：是啊，我们还要说什么呢？

他说我什么都不告诉他，他又有尝试和我深入谈过吗？

他除了忙，还是忙。

所以有些问题自己放在心里就好。

我希望你看到的我是开朗有信心，而不是难过不快乐。

一直压抑自己，久而久之，我心里真的不好过。

于是我发脾气，他却察觉不了我为何心情不好，脾气不佳。

我希望自己不会掉眼泪，可是现在眼泪真的滑下来了。

心在哭泣，眼在流泪，他知道吗？

爱情是不是就这样慢慢被磨掉的呢？