depressed

comm. theories assignment is around the corner.
i spent a whole night to do crm, but rejected without by chan looked twice.
i skipped tana's class this morning, overslept. the result is i lost 20 marks of assignments.

chee hoe asked me why i absent, i shrugged my shoulder and said overslept, pretended as i didn't care the 20 marks.

but i heard there's a voice sneering at me: are you really don't care the 20 marks?? ahahaha... you are a loser...
i shook my head, there must be a delusion...

i mind the marks but not willing to admit it.

malaysia education system makes everyone bear in mind that marks is everything, i'm one of it...

sucks muhiyddin gambles the future of kids...

sigh...

seems i can't do well in anything...
advanced is far more difficult than i imagine, depressed depressed depressed.
no regret, no grumbling, do the best you can....
anymore other than this?
coincidentally found that rui ern also face the same problem these few days..
everyone is depressed, pressure from study, pressure from work, pressure from family...
i wish i could disappear without a trace....