i'm not a substitute!!!

i'm a bit can't stand with you.
please do not assert your obligation towards me.
i'm just a normal human being, same as you i also will be weary.
please remember that i'm not a god or robot.
we have discussed that day, i will work on Monday and Tuesday, Saturday and Sunday for this week.
you will be working on Wednesday to Friday.
and now you requested for me to replace you on this Friday, it is a bit over.
I've said very clearly and certainly before, i only will work for 4days in a week.
the rest please settle you own.
this is your obligation, no matter what happen you have to be responsible of it.
otherwise, how you are going to face the cruelty of this society in the future with such attitude?
i really can't help you for this intense period as I'm also scurry my assignment.
if you were in my shoes, you also would feel apprehensive if i asked for such request, isn't it?

A lass and ordinary-looking

hmmm... now i really realized the differences of after well-dressed and before.
today i went to sing at greenbox karaoke with my buddies.

i went there by alone.
before i started talking about my personal experience, let me tell you all what i wore today.
i was wearing a pair of high heel shoe, a short pants and a white blouse.
as i get up the bus, the bus contractor who is a chinese keep on finding topic talk to me,
he asked : where are you going? what are u doing at there?
and definitely i answered politely.

lastly i reached sungai wang,
he even said :i give you my number, next time if you go sg.wang again, you can find me, i bring you try something interesting...
then i just smiled because i really didn't know how should i react....

afterthat, i had my lunch alone as bk them all finished having their lunch.
then the same thing happened when i finished my meal,
three guys entered that restaurant to have their meals.
i was facing to wall that time.
abruptly, one of them appeared in front of me and looking on the posts from customers that stick on the wall.
just within 5 seconds, he back to his seat.
i felt weird and at first i thought he wants to read all those posts,
but how could he finished reading within 5 seconds?
so i'm 90% sure he is purposely want to see how i'm look like @@.

moreover, i listen clearly about his conversation with his friends.
they were talking about:
"ei... that girl looks not bad ar..."
"hey, if you want to tackle her, faster go and get her phone number and blah blah blah..."

definitely they were talking about me because i was the only female customer inside the shop.
at the same time, i hope the cashier gave me the change as soon as he could so i can leave the shop as quick as i could.

the world is reality, if that time i was wearing a pair of jeans and t-shirt,
i don't think they will react in the same way...
the conclusion is everyone loves to see beautiful things, xD...

uncertainty avoidance

i learned this phrase during tutorial on malaysia: cultural and religious practice.
according to Hofstede, uncertainty avoidance means "the extent to which people within a culture are made nervous by unpredictable, unclear or unstructured situation,
therefore they try to avoid by maintaining strict codes of behavior and a belief in absolute truths."

in a word, uncertainty avoidance means the avoidance from something that is not unpredictable.
according to research conducted by Hofstede, majority malaysian is in the middle of high and low uncertainty avoidance.

future is unpredictable, i'm willing to take the challenge although i'm afraid of uncertainty at the same time.
that's the real meaning of LIFE. always progress and change.
if u do not change and maintain the same level after 10years, then you will be knockout by the tide of development.
if your future and lifen is arranged by elder or parents, then what's the meaning of LIFE?

what does romantic means to you?

after browsed to blog of some friends, most of them posted on how they celebrated valentine's day n birthday with their another half.
and quite many of them had gone through a romantic valentine's day.
thus, i recall my memory on how i celebrated those event.
i can say that truly it is not romantic at all.
it is the second valentine's day. he wasn't at kl last valentine's.
and this year no candlelight dinner, no flowers,we only went to watch movie and then back home on that day.
a cake,two candles and him accompanied my birthday.
in fact, i was really a bit disappointed about that, he didn't give me some surprise...
sigh...
but i am same as other girl.
maybe his mind is i am very realistic, thus he need not prepare all these.
but, sure i wish my dearest will act differently from normal in those special days.
however, dreaming is dreaming, reality is reality.
i have to back from dreamland to reality,he is my dearest.
i expected all these from the day we're together.
am i repent about my decision?
definitely i'm not regret.
i still love him, but i am sure he does not realize that no matter how realistic a girl is, she still hopes a cinderella can becomes a princess despite only for one night.
that's the different between men and women.
he doesn't understand that candlelight dinner,flowers that are "traditional gimmick" will always trap the heart of every girl.
small details that guy tend to ignore is actually what care by women.
i had said before it's better u give me all the cash if u use the money to buy i bouquet of roses to me.
at the end, i really din receive even a rose on valentine's day.
==
what does romantic means to you?

new semester new beginning

it is the last semester in diploma, i feel like i do nothing within these two years.
and recently i was passive in doing everything include study, find a job.
maybe it is due to play online game too much, become addicted to it.
so start from now i MUST control the time of entertainment.
i restrict myself cannot play game more than 2 hours per day.

THINGS MUST DO
1. write an article everyday as a preparation to advanced diploma
2. read a book within two weeks
3. read English and Chinese newspapers everyday
4. learn all the English grammar
5. read an article and speak it out to improve my pronunciation

some new words i learn today
-bewildered,weary,haggard= tired, exhausted
-wrath=angry (example: her behavior kindles his wrath)
-kindle=raise
-onslaught=sudden attack (e.g war)
-trod=step (example: he has never trod on the place after that day)

now i'm reading the book of J.R.R.Tolkien, The Children of Hurin.
the story a bit similar to The Lord of The Ring.
my dear is going back home tomorrow.
sigh, see him after one week...

the road not taken

i am still remember this poem, i learned it when i was in secondary school...
there was two road diverge, you only can take one, you'll never know what happen to another road...
now i'm standing in front of two roads, it was like i back to the time when i was graduated from secondary school.
different decision different consequences,different result.
which way i should go? which path will direct me to a better life?

advantages and disadvantages of two different decision:

ADVANTAGES OF CONTINUE STUDYING
1. actually i like study though before that i found that as day by day i lost the passionate of learning.
2. study is a good thing, a basic element leads to better future.
3. increase my competitiveness

DISADVANTAGES OF CONTINUE STUDYING
1. cannot working full time, no permanent financial support
2. can't help my family
3. my dad cannot retire

ADVANTAGES OF WORKING
1. help my family, my dad relieve their financial burden.
2. a permanent financial income
3. get more experience

DISADVANTAGES OF WORKING
1. i hate working
2. i cannot continue studying
.....

lastly i found that maybe one of the reasons i like studying is due to i want escape from reality, escape from the cruelty of reality temporarily....
piggu, you said three working days to process.
please proceed your report to me punctually after three days, effective from the time i post this....
XD

恋爱中。。。

恋爱中的女生是不是都特别敏感呢？
常常会因为对方的一句话而情绪低落，落泪。。。
每个女生都会这样的吗？
为什么明明他对我已经很好了，
可是他的一句话一个小动作都令我怀疑：他不再关心我了吗？
哎哟。。。我几时变成这样了啦？
我不是一向来都很潇洒的吗。。。
唉。。。
变成这样真的是。。。
不习惯就是不习惯。。。

3 days before exam...

2/9/2008
three days before exam, but my mind still wandering , i lose the track of what i'm doing.
1/9/2008
holiday, did nothing, mind tied on online games
31/8/2008
working a whole day, malaysia's 51th birthday, get double paid for this day, rm190 overall. yeah, temporary free from works.
30/8/2008
working a whole day, feeeling lazy...
29/8/2008
worked at koon huat jln ipoh. job is easy, just gave away free gift. i know quite a lot about about. a beginning lesson to paint. worked for 7 hours, salary rm100. saw chan, next time call me again if u has such job.

Beijing 2008

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the power of dream

just now was going out with coursemates and lecturer.
chui foon's 19-year-old birthday, cheers!!!
julius said dream is very important as it is a motivation that you chase for.
then he asked us, 10 person, why we choose study JR?
my reason is very simple: i want to be a journalist
as i could see, chiau cheah and julia hope they can continue studying Chinese at university.
chee hong and sheau yun they wish someday they can be an author.
while k'ng and tina wanna be a teacher in the future.
jeffrey is more interested in being current affairs commentor.
chui foon and kok wai are interested in news.
seems like the number of people that really keen to be a journalist is very few.
he also told us that, as we involved in mass com, we will struggle what to write.
tell the truth? or do whatever your editor wants you to write?
your writing will influence the world.
you wan be a puppet or have your own way?
as you get your dream must find some way to realize it.
there was no free breakfast in the world. (translate from chinese, haha...)
it's time for us to make a decision.
u wan floating around and day-dreaming in this two years or do your best in this two years?
we still have time to make our best.

bread fried? fried bread?

er hem...
this was prepared by dear as my lunch...
i don't know how to name it.
bread fried? fried bread?
could it be a heart shape next time :D?
it's really tasty...
once i opened the case, the flavor came out.
and i tried it, bite it slowly...
wow... it was with a layer of egg topping...
yum yum...
by the way, the quantity of bread was enough for two meal.
he gave me 7 pieces of bread!!!
i had been eating it from 11am to about 3.30pm..
anyway, thanks dear...
you woke up from 6.30 just want to prepare this one for me...
so touching o...
muackss...
i don't know why every time i eat his cooking, i feel happy.
perhaps if explain from psychological way, we feel happy no matter the food is tasty. it's just simply because it's made by your beloved.
do you think that it sounds logical?
(ya...it's logic)
of course it is logic because it's mine theory, Kris's Theory.
haha...
he wrote this on my hand yesterday.
he tried to scare me that if i don't rub it, the ink of highlighter will be absorbed by my skin.
does not it sound sarcastic?
yes, but i believe on it.
so stupid...

sorry

dear, sorry for the words that i simply talked just now...
i know it wasn't your fault because we can't control the changing of timetable.
but the time we meet each other is getting lesser and lesser.
in the beginning, i can go your house on tuesday,eat your cooking.
so nice...
but now timetable has changed, your classes will be finished at 4pm.
aiyo, I'm no longer can stay at your home for whole noon.
cannot eat your cooking...
bloody SOT...
i curse u!!!
(so serious? wahaha...)
kill my only time that together with you...
dear, sorry..
i have taekwondo, i have to work, i have to go to hospital...
plus we can't go out at night...
i'm not a nice girlfriend, can't accompany you always...
in fact, it's my problem instead always blame you couldn't be with me frequently...
i'm really not a nice girlfriend.
sorry, dear...

BN!!!

as a future journalist, i realize that there was no freedom of speech in this country.
three days ago, journalists were barred from entering parliament.
wa... you see how democracy this country is.
super duper DEMOCRACY.
politicians' acting are absolutely amazing and they can be the Oscar winner.
malaysia is a political stable country, remain the same government for the past 50 years.
that's why it's really STABLE.
petrol price increase once a few months, now reaching rm2.70 per liter.
BN claimed that it was the LOWEST in the ASEAN.
ya la, i know you know we know rm2.70 is the "LOWEST" in the region.
but malaysia is oil producing countries.
let us compare the price with OIL PRODUCING countries:

UAE – RM1.19/litre
Eygpt – RM1.03/litre
Bahrain – RM0.87/litre
Qatar – RM0.68/litre
Kuwait – RM0.67/litre
Saudi Arabia – RM0.38/litre
Iran – RM0.35/litre
Nigeria – RM0.32/litre
Turkmenistan – RM0.25/litre
Venezuela – RM0.16/litre
MALAYSIA – RM2.70/litre

so called " LOWEST"

this is the way BN lies to Rakyat.
cheating us for 50 years huh...

简单的幸福

其实幸福并不是想像中的那么容易。
在世界上六十亿人口里要找到一个你爱他，他也爱你的人并不简单。
前几天与朋友无意中聊起各自的家人，她说她姐姐已经结婚了，生了个很可爱的小女娃，老公是个好丈夫，好爸爸，爱老婆也爱女儿。
原本不太融洽的关系因为一个小贝比而拉近了。
我好希望我的家也可以变成这样。
当姐姐告诉我们她要结婚了，我当时就想她一定会在众人面前步向人生中的另一个阶段，生活不再那么辛苦，之后生个小孩，快快乐乐地过生活。
但现实与所想的是有差的。
我多么希望姐姐能快点好起来，站起来，望着我们，对着我们笑。
姐，我只希望你能好起来。
不要让我们等那么久好吗？

am i fierce?

just now i sent shin kiat to ground floor by lift.
i scolded two kids that were simply press lift buttons.
i know i'm quite fierce at that time (not only at that time, it's i am fierce at all time)
i couldn't bear with naughty kids that simply playing with lift and affect others.
after we went out from lift, he told me not to be too fierce next time.
okay, i admit i was quite hot-tempered just now.
now i think back, i wonder why just now i get so angry?
it's really no point for me to scolded that two naughty kids...
he is right.
well, i promise you. next time i will be more fondness

sweet breakfast ^o^

i opened my locker this morning and then i found two pieces of bread and one box of chocolate milk.
wa... so sweet^o^...
someone prepared breakfast for me...
dear, you are the best!!!
however, sometimes i really feel like i'm a guy from personalities while shinkiat's personalities are more like girl,perhaps??
he is gentle to me, while i'm rough and careless...
with my limited english, i couldn't find a proper adjectives to describe myself.
will u blame me due to i am not caring and not feminine??

the disappearance of 7 people

i start the second year at TARC.
it is the second week of fourth semester.
as the opening of school, there are quite a number of people withdraw from JR.
ice,tracy,ranjini,hashvini,sheila,li bing are no longer with us.
while jia lerk repeats the subjects he fails.
34 people minus 7, left 27 people.
i heard that this year junior only 17 people.
wow, i'm doubting that will they be the same after one year and only left 10 person in one course??
is journalism really a tough subject and makes people give it up??
personally, i don't think so.
if you're really keen in being a journalist then you won't be given it up easily.
perhaps JR wasn't what they really want thus they choose to stop it earlier rather than wasting their time.
i'm agree with that.
if u found that u dislike or feel this is a mundane course,then you're supposed to quit it.
it's fine but please make sure ourselves won't regret of our action.

result reelased

Yeah!!! Eventually, my third semester result released.
Yesterday my stomach was filled with butterfly.
I get A- for translation, B+ for mass media and society, obtaining two credit hour for Taekwondo as well.
ShinKiat also pass all the subject and successfully further his study to advanced diploma.
Yeah!!! Yeah!!! Yeah!!!
Fortunately, he pass.
Otherwise, i have to separate with him one year.
Suddenly i'm quite proud of myself.
haha...
Despite i was having chicken pox that time, but i can pass the two subjects and get a unexpected result.
hohoho...
Shinkiat, I miss you o...
haha...

NeuroTomotherapy

Tomotherapy is the future of radiation therapy.
when it applied to the brain it named NeuroTomotherapy.
this treatment is available at Singapore Brain,Spine,Nerve Center.
definitely this type of treatment will be worked better than traditional radiation therapy such as Gamma knife, X-knife, Cyberknife and Novalis.

special gift from demo power

I went PJ again training for the next project, Spontex gloves.
I'm really tired of going there once a week.
It wastes my time and money.
But today's training is slightly different from previous.
It improves my general knowledge.
Well, let me briefly explain the five types gloves of Spontex and the yellow mop as well.
I'm definitely not trying to push the sales of Spontex.
By the way, i just want to recall my memory since i'm quite free now.
First of all, our hands are the first area contact with anything and hands will show the true age.
Our face can be staying flawless and radiance as long as you have money.
Lotions and creams are essential in taking good care of our hand but they cannot prevent us contacting with dirt, grease, detergent etc.
Thus, we NOW have a solution. It's SPONTEX GLOVES!!!
The first one, DAILY DEFENSE
With its cotton flock lining, it can absorbs perspiration thus our hands will feel more comfortable.
Beside, it has long cuff for us to turn back to catch drips.
It is durable and heavier compare to other range of products.
The second one, SENSITIVE.
From it's name we could know that this product is for those who has sensitive skin.
Made up from natural latex and included cotton flock lining as well.
The third one, COMFY.
This one is the lightest in weight and ultra thin. It is tailored to meet consumers' needs.
High flexibility and sensitivity make this gloves to be a super duper product!!!(hahaha...too emphasize on it)
And the last one is FRESH LEMON.
This type of gloves is lemon-scented, thus it is suitable to use it when washing toilet.
But not everyone likes it.
After the briefing, suddenly client visited us and wanted to look at our performance.
Wen-ji said that our presentation are well-done and gave us some special gift,which are three sachet of nescafe 3in1 and sanitary pads.
She said this was the first time client praised about ts's performance.
haha,that's mean my performance was quite good as well....